-063. What a fool

Feel, like afool now. Seems everything so unfair. Though that i don't wanna like this but i do nothing for myself. Just sitting see them and hate them. suppose not like that, but what I can do??? I've to do something but I don't have any power to prove or make it something. How it can be like this God.

I don't wanna being one of those fools. I hate being like this, this is not me. Can't enjoy my self anymore. I have to believe that God will show His way to take me to the better place or maybe best post.